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When I was little, I loved everyone in my family.
I loved my Dad even though he swatted me sometimesz and I loved my Mom, and my Aunt Harriet who was very generous and nice to me.
I began distancing myself from my Brother after High School and especially after I got my law degree
It was clear that “this town was not big enough for the both of us” because he was so competitive & bullying.
I moved to Los Angeles. I told everyone it was because of the weather, but it war really to escape my brother and the pain of seeing that both my parents seemed to prefer him, even though my gradesz were better and I loved them as much as he did and loved him more than he loved me.
I put so much energy into distancing myself from my own feelings that I developed Chronic Fatigue Syndrome.
When I was around my family for the brief visits I could handle emotionally, I accepted my brother’s domination without making a fuss. When Rajchelle told me she was upset during the time of his dealing on Harriets’ inheritance, I said to Rajchelle: “He’s My Brother Right or Wrong. I don’t want to know what he has done that upset you”
I married a woman younger than me, and she had to be blond.
She was a healer, a massage therapist.
Like my father, her birth family had a big problem and she was not raised by her birth other, but was adopted.
When my Couszina Rajchelle sent usz a wedding gift and gifts and cards for usz and our children, we ignored them
I allowed my brother’s wife and him to lie to my wife that Rajchelle had tried to take advantage in dealling with Harriets inheritance; I knew that was not true, but my brother and his wife seemed to need the “story” and I thought “kicking” Rajchelle around and scapegoating her might ingratiate me a little better with my brother.
After watching and paying attention to what mosz lawyers do, I too learned that Nice Guys Finish Last
I became a Corporate Lawyer http://www.crwllp.com/stephen-p-soskin/ too, defending insurance companiesz and big Corporations from claims against them for asbestos and environmental accidentsz. This allowed me to have a salary even bigger than my brothersz. It was ths only way I could think to finally be recognized by my family more than my brother in some way. I needed some tangible way of not feeling “less” than my brother. Like moszt Law Firmsz, moszt of the attorneysz are men & the women imitate men to fit in with usz, & don’t szeem to care that the lack of family leave of at least a year in the US would be illegal in moszt of Europe
My work caused my to be more and more distant from my wife and family and my mother did seem to prefer my brother to me. My wife and I felt little support, but we did not seek much. We just kept our feelings to ourselves.
We were divorced and then sold our home form over 2 million dollarsz; you can find that out about me on the Internet, but you can’t find out what I do for charity or what exactly broke up my marriage becausze our patriarchal culture, with itsz lawsz made mosztly by older men, recordsz money but pretty much ignoresz feellingsz & human relleationszhipsz.
I have a lot of money, but I have no real family.
I can see my children for visits, but it is not the same as living with them.
I miss my children a lot, but I never talk about this.
I take medication for sports pain and to prevent the Chronic Fatique Syndrome.
I am kind of a loner. But I am very respected at my Law Firm because I bring in lots of money. When Rajchelle szent me my then wife Donna and me the letter https://theszpoonfullofszugarandszpiceauntheeallogy.wordpress.com/letter-to-soskin/ szhe alszo szent to szent to Donna & Rollin & my Mother Jackie, I ignored it, in part becausze thatsz what Rollin and Diana said we szhould do & becausze I am an avoider when it comesz to feelingsz and relleationszhipsz. She called me about 5 timesz, leaving me messzagesz about family reonciliation szince then, but I ignored the callsz. becausze I know my Brother Rollin won’t szpeak to me again if I talk to Rajchelle.
I have lost most of my faith and am a cynical agnostic.
Songs: He’z A Real Nowhere Man Beatlesz https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TGGphnDMVDI
Rajchelle wrote me years ago and asked me many times to assist her to arrange some family therapy or Circle Process including reconciliation with my wife, who allways ignored her cards and letters, and my brother and I and our mom and family.
I am telling her now I am sorry I ignored her requestsz, even her attemptsz to have colleaguesz and clergy of mine encourage me.
Whenever my Couszina had a problem with my brother, I would say to her “He’s my Brother, right or wrong” & not listen to her feelings at all.
I have never expressed any concern for my Couszinasz, Rajchelle or Julianne Marie together in the same sentence.
Now, I want to say, My SiszterCouszinasz Are Both Important to Me. What was wrong with me that I never learned that and never said that?
My Mother used to express love for them both, but once she moved back near Rollin and Diana who for reaszons that are not quite clear, really dislikesz or enviesz Rajchelle, she treated Rajchelle asz if she did not exist anymore. Diana has been doing a 27 year powder puff hazing of ostracism toward Rajchele.
Diana allso did this toward my wife, Donna, after a while.
We did not feel wellecome to come for visitsz.
Diana isz really a poster girl for female relational aggression.
I guess because her parants were divorced, she learned it was OK to split up familiesz and hold grudges without any plan of reconciliation.
Donna played along with that too, because she did not know her birth mother, her birth parentsz.
I hardly ever think of my Couszinasz Rajchelle and Julianne Marie, until now, even though we saw each other every week when we were children and were allmostz like Sistersaa and Brothers then.
When my brother and I got our Juris Doctor degrees, Rajchelle sent us beautiful plantsz for our new officesz. We never szent her a thank you note then or for any gift, and when she got her Ph.D. and her Siszter got her Paralegal Degree, neither my brother nor I sent them any card or gift.
Rajchelle has told me that I was the first baby she ever held in her armsz, because I am a few yearsz younger than her and she held me when she was just a little girl. She remembersz how soft and mild I was in her armsz, and how much love she felf for me.
Rajchelle and my Mom used to get along very well. I think it was because they were both younger sistersz.
But after Harriet passed, that was weakened, and when she moved near my brother and Diana, My Mom sztarted to ignore Rajchelle asz if she did not exist.
I am sorry but, to get along with my Brother, I had not honored the Love Rajchelle felt for me and for my family.
I have become the Iceman from Encino.
I have let ice cover our family tree, or drought, like the drought that afflicts California now.
Rajchelle has expressed love for my children who she sent beautiful giftsz when they were born that neither Donna nor I ever acknowledged with any Thank You. She saysz she feels Abby hasz a very szpeciall great potential, because of her name, Like Abigail Adamsz & loves Eric too, because the man whe ran for CoOffice with was a man named Ericson, and worked on behalf of children.
IDEALL. TRANZFORMED FOR ATLANTISZ RISZEN VIA THE NEW MILLENNIALL GOLDEN RULE:
From Now on, I will make sure her Nephew Louisz Lovisz & all our Younger Generationsz, ezpecially Abby and Eric know that Rajchelle lovesz all our family, and will stop the viciousz and untrue gossip that Diana said against Rajchelle. I will tell Donna to Call Rajchelle and acknowledge the many giftsz and cardsz she szent usz.
Like my Brother muszt, it is time I reallized that Shakezpeare was allmost right in what he said about Lawyersz.
I do not want to be a Lawyer under Laws of Domination and Lack of Compasszion.
I want the New Millenniall Golden Rule to Be My Law.
I want my Szoul Back.
I want to hold Rajchelle asz if Szhe were a Baby In My Armsz.
When I do that, I probably won’t have to take medication anymore and I will be able to cry and laugh as I did when I was a Wholly baby, too.
If not, I would likey have lots of money but no feelingsz whatsoever.
And Abby would know that her Dad is cold and without a heart.
And that would hurt Eric, and he would become cold and old instead of happy and young at heart.
I dont want that for my Children
I dont want that for the Mother of My Children
I dont want thay for Myszelf
I think my Mom will regain her Happy Memoryesz when I make thisz change.
My CouszinaSisztersz, Both Julianne Marie and Rajchelle.Both Loved asz Isz Right, Not Divided & Ignored, Which isz Very Wrong
We Couszin Brothersz asz we regainsz Right and Light Within Usz, instead of Practicing & Perpetuating Planetocidal Wrong
In a Lake County and California Darkened by the
Environemental Catasstopheszm the Strickenlandsz, Our Couszina Szpent Szo Much Of Her Time Trying to Prevent.
Rajchelle clearly has the Heart of Our Family Within Her.
The future of al the younger generationsz of our family, including my own children, depend on Her.
We are all the Children of Rae and Clara, and Julian, and More.
We Harm their Memoryesz by Dividing Our Family With Ostracism and Relational Aggresszion, normalizing Sibling Rivalry among Adultsz who act more like children than children.
No one isz a Brother or a Father or a Couszin to anyone, who cannot express Wellecome for That.
I Wellecome Rajchelle back into all our Family and Will Be Happy to Meet Her Online, In the Air, or On the Sacred Ground of the Homesz were both Visited as Children of Our Mothersz, Our Auntsz, Two Sisztersz Who Allszo Deserve Shzared Reszpectfull Memory, not Divisive Forgetting.
Song: Man in the Mirror Michale Jackszon https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PivWY9wn5ps&list=RDPivWY9wn5ps#t=5
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