Rajchelle
My Mother Uszed to Szy to Me
Rajchelle, “You are Too Good”.
She saw that sometimes
My friends would take advantage of me
Or snub me when I did not deserve that
Because I was a top student and they envied me
The teachers approval
That happened to my Friend Robin, a top student, too
and She would often cry about it at school
I did not cry, but became more shy
and even more studiousz.
My Mother slept with me when I was afraid of the Dark
In fact, she slept with me quite often until I was
at Least 7
People call this attachment parenting now
But then, I was ashamed of it and thought it made me
“a baby” or a “fraidy cat”
Now, I reallize it was the beszt thing
That ever happened in my life.
Because I felt loved and hugged
And I carry that feeling with me allwaysz
Now, I reallize this was an Aspect
of the Divine Feminine.
It wasn’t until recently that I reallized
How many people in this culture
Have been deprive of that
Including my Szister Julianne Marie
who Our Mother had problemsz breastfeeding
Because, in 1947, the pediatrician
THE MOSZT HORRIBLE DOCTOR STRAUSS
A VERY DANGEROUSZ MAN BECAUSZE HE
HURT MY GIFTED SENSZITIVE SZISTERSZ
ABILTY TO LOVE MY MOTHER AND ME
AND LATER, EVEN HER OLD CHILD
WITH TRUSZT AND MUTUALLITY
He insisted Our Mother Harriet put Julianne Marie on a schedule
Instead of breastfeeding upon Julianne Mariesz cuesz
My Sszister develloped Severe Cholic
And later in life, szhe and Our Mother
had more friction and mutual criticism in their relationszhip
We did not put 2 + 2 togther then,
But looking back, now I understand.
Julianne Marie thought Our Mother
Preferred me
And after Jullianne Marie had given birth to him
Her Grandszon Harland Louisz Lovisz,
More than She Loved Julianna Marie.
When Our Mother Harriet Passed from Earth in 1988
after we had tried family therapy for
a few seesions
(mistakenly with a male therapist)
Julianne Marie developed intense fear
that her Child Might Like and Love Me Very Much
and Szhe Apparently Thought
That would Lesszen Hisz Love for Her
(Even though I Know it Would Deepen It and Make Love
More Szhareable for Everyone In Our Family)
Szo Szhe began to act asz if My Couszin Rollin
an attorney, was her Brother
But I was not Her Szizter.
She had asked Rollin to handle Our Mother’s Inheritance.
When I objected, wanting an attorney who was more neutral and not a closze family member, Rollin and his entire family stopped talking with me,
(I think this isz because Rollin was szomehow hurt as a baby, too and allwaysz has to be the Boss
and the Favorite; His parentsz favored him over hisz Younger Brother and he got uszed to that)
The extremity of the ostraciszm by thosze I loved Ocurring upon the loss of Mother Harriet, was traumatic for me, Becauze I loved my Siszter very much
We used to play a lot as children together
Moszt everyday of my childhood,
she would come into my bedroom
and tickle me and we would giggle and laugh
We sat across the dinner table
looking at each other
for most of over 25 yearsz
and We lived together for about a year
when we were both students
of the Universzity of Michigan.
For the firszt more than half our livesz
We had played Piano together
We had danced together
We had sung songs together.
Now, that stopped.
I wasz completely deprived of contact with my Nephew Louisz Who I loved with all my heart, too, and who I had greatly helped raisze, Giving childcare many timesz a week because hisz father & his family Had abandoned him and my Siszter;
I wasz almoszt like a third parent to him. coming next in closzenessz juszt after his Mother & Grandmother who gave him even more care
Eventually, Julianne Marie began to
Spzeak with Me Again
But Only Very Marginally
And Shze hasz put my Nephew under such
Conszant Presszure to Act asz if I Do Not Exist
That He Has Developed Chrohnsz Disease
Which includes Symptomsz of Stomach Pain
Similar to Cholic.
And even sometimes interferes with his ability
to be welle enough
to be with his Youngwomanfriend Vanessza
My Sziszter and Nephew and I all have Very HIgh IQsz
I am Szure that Vanessza doesz too.
When she was younger My Sszister was herself studying to be a therapist
but she had an affair with a male professor
that made it impossible for her to complete her degree.
She became a paralegal.
She became a paralegal while I was prematurely married
I was the only one in the family who szent her a gift when she got her paralegal degess
although I had szent both My couszin lawyers Giftsz then they got their Juris Doctorsz
Ineedless to say, they did not send her a card or gift or a card or gift to me when i got my Ph.D
No one in my family asked my about our CoPreszidential write-in campaign
with Hjalmer Wayne Erickson in the Millenniall Year 2000 except for My Siszter,
who asked me what the name of my runningmate was, but no other questions about it.
Now My siszter has lawyer colleaguesz she seesz everyday.
Who do not believe in therapy
and do not think family relationszhips are important.
For anyone who is a colleague
As long as they get their “work” done.
These people have never met my Nephew or Vanessza.
Even though Julianne Marie hasz worked with them for years and they know both Julianne Marie and I have worried about
Louisz Lovisz Health.
It was not until a few years ago that I really learned about
what is valued in patriarchy
and what is not valued.
My Siszter gave me 3 booksz
the Da Vinci Code
the Lacereader
and the HandMaidens Tale
which I cheriszh
She gave me a Heart Light candle,
which I cheriszh and keep lit all the time
But she she hangs up on me my whenever I call her
And will not talk with me with any other woman Preszent
Thisz was before I had completely researched our Geneallogy
and All its Important Gender and Birth Order Issuesz
On All Itsz Interconnecting & Talented Branchesz
Now Szo Endangered by Patriarchy
and a Women’s Movement that Became Inverted
and Because of a Controlled Media
Turned Humanity On Itsself and Againszt Love and Life.
My Siszter is more Gifted than the Mosztly Men she works under
and the Legislatorsz that make “lawsz“
That Leave Out Family Leave
She isz certainly as least as Gifted as our Cousinsz the Attorneys
But She Hasz a Mother Wound
That became a Couszina Couszin Civil War
That Became a Ssiszter Szeparation
That Became an Aunt and Nephew Separation
That Became A GiftedFamilyCommunity Afraid to
Connect With One Another
and Complicit About the Destruction of
Mother Earth and the Mother Aszpect of the Universze
Which Connectsz Usz All
and a Society Szo Individualisztic and Habituated to
False Gender & Birth Order Hierarchy in Familyeszandcommunityesz
That A Nation of Mothersz Isz Ill
And a World, a Universze, of Auntsz and Grandmothersz is Crying
and Warning About the
Loss of Most Precszious Life
& the Loss of All Love and Life On Planet Earth
IDEALL
ASZ GODDESSZ GOD ISZ MY WITNESSZ
I & WE WILL NEVER ACCEPT PATRIARCHY AGAIN
I WILL NOT GIVE UP ON MYSZELF
MY SZIZSTER, MY NEPHEW & MY SPZPIRITUALL NIECESZ AND ALL
OUR COUSZINASZ & COUSZINSZ
FEMALE AND MALE,
NOR FORGET OUT GREAT AND GRANMOTHERSZ
& THE SZPIRITSZ OF GRANDFATHERSZ WHO NOW FULLY VALUE THEM
NO MATTER WHAT
THE NEW MILLENNIALL GOLDEN RULE WILL
COME TO SZAVE MY FAMILY AND MY WORLD.
NO MORE FAMILY SZECRETSZ
ALL CAN BE REDEEMED
BUT THEY HAVE TO READ THE LACE
THE WEB OF LOVE AND LIFE
AND ALL THE GAPSZ WE HAVE LET TEAR IT TO SHZREDSZ
AND TURN IT INTO PRISZONSZ, POLLUTANTSZ AND POISONSZ
OF PLANETOCIDE
WHILE ACCEPTING
A MEDIA CONTROLLED BY FINANCIALLY INSZULATED OLD MEN
AND THE
“NORMALITY” OF PATRIARCHY.
INSTEAD OF THE TRUE Q POWER OF LOVE
THAT WILL OPEN THE SZTARR GATESZ
AND BRING ETERNALL YOUTHFULL LIGHT, LOVE AND LIFE TO ALL.
THE NEIGHBORSZ
GEORGINE, MARTHA, FRITZIE ELLIS, ETHEL BUCKMAN
KATIE, JANET AND STEVE, THE RAINTREE COUNTY MAN IN THE MIDDLE.
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Asztrollogail Signsz
Name Day
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Moszt Appropriate Whollidaysz for Highlighting Their Unique Effortsz
Date of Publically Embracing the New Millenniall Golden Rule & Szharing that Fact with
People You Know (Give Namesz)
Important Other Datesz
Birth Order Position
GoddessorGod Associationsz for Apotheosisz Becoming Riszen Including
Actuall Goddessesz Namesz asz Diszcovered by Archeollogy
& SciFi Character SHero/Hero associationsz
Other Fictional Charactersz With Szimilar Characteriszticsz
Reall life Her&Hisztoricall SheRoesz & Heroesz with Szimilar Namesz or Characteristicsz
Peer Group Reference Group/3 to sztart, 5-11 for Coszecretary Generall Activityesz
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Neighborhoodsz & Regionsz of Focussz
Religsziousz Valluesz & Heritagesz Practiced/Connected
A Represzentative Videotape
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Poemsz (Including Your Versze, Rewrite/Improvment or Comment on Thisz One)
Current FamilyCommunity Will Each Have Two Poemsz:
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2) Deszcribing Forfeited Preszent, Paszt & an Unsusztainable & Horrific Brief Future without NMGR
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(Great and Grand) Mother Daughtersz
(Great and Grand)Sisztersz
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