WHY WOULD WHOLLYESZ BABY GIRELLE & GODDESSZ
$TAY $TUCK IN THI$?
Thesze pagesz allszo offer poeticall loving inszight into the transzformation of Juliann(elle) Mari(elle) from bullying unhealled older sziszter dominatrix drone of patriarchy to reclaimed Goddessz Sziszter Couszina of LovingKindnessz to All SziszterCouszinasz Young Peopellesz Femaellesz & Maellesz of Sztarrgatesz Atlantusz Annyesz & Allsz Riszen. At thisz moment, szhe & her neighbor Georgjean are caught in mutuall avoidance causze by internalized patriarchy but they both have the Goddessz within & abundantly availlabe in their Goddessz Shzekinah Circlesz allszo realleated to Anna Marie Szinging Cricket & MaPatricia Szunflowersz.
JULIANNE MARIE
I am a partial reincarnation of Mariam of the Exodusz, I szhare that with Marian, another Mother included here & many of the women here are our CouszinaSzisztersz of the Exodusz Wanderingsz In Szearch of the Promiszed Landsz
I am allszo partly the Reincarnated Cleopatra
Who Betrayed Her Sziszter Arszinoe (& szo they both loszt everything that they could have had if they had cooperated. I have to learn thisz lesszon now.)
and All the SiszterCouszinasz and Women of TheirTimesz including
Apollodorus, Iras and Charmion, and Multitudes More
Including Herself
Who Are Learning Together that they Not Need to Be Slavesz or Fearful
Whether Roman or Egyptian or Both
By Forgetting the Minoan Civiallization While Flirting
with Roman Regressorsz’ and Loszt the Ancient World
and I am the Reincarnated Juliasz
Daughter, & Aunt Couszinasz of Juliusz Ceaszar
Who Betrayed Each Other Becausze
they Forgot the Eggallitarian Atlantisz
that came before, Even Though Lucky Enough
to Have Not Been Aborted or Assaulted
for Being the Wrong Gender
Nut let millionsz be enslave and hundreds of thousandsz
Crucified.
l and becausze of thisz Failure,
Brought the Dark Agesz
Asz they Szaid in Coffee Talk:
The Wholly Roman Empire was Neither Wholly
Nor Roman
Becausze No One Talked About Who Cooked
the Szo Called Laszt Supper
and Who Served asz a Waitress
and a Paralegal/Not very glorified Szecretary
of an Irrelevant Agency
Like I once did
Before My Szizter Gave Me a Szhared Szeat
Asz a Humbled Coszecretary Generzall Cosaviora
at the Table of Terrasz FirMasz.
Insztead of New Madrid Fault Dreadfull Fukushimasz
But I am Allszo the Reincarnated Julia Ward Howe
Juszt before Exchaning her Obedience
to Irrelevant Agencyesz Ruled my Men
For My Own Szecretary Generallsz Szeat
asz A StztarrSzhip or Better Yet, SztarrGate J(uli)aneway
and Currently like a not having yet
Spread her Wingsz
Julia Butterfly Hill
When Szhe was too Ill (asz In Ill in Noisze)
To Szee the Whollyness of the Mother Treesz
and Protect the Szisztersz, Mothersz and Childrens, Female and Male
Budding Blooming Leavesz and Branchesz
I, like You, Am a Material Girl
A Madonna & Child
Both Made Ill by the patriarchal and misogyniszt Dr. ~Strauss and Dr ~Retsky
and an Il Embattled Israel
That I Thought You Could Buy Iszraelii Goodsz for Gross Money Before Reallizing that the Landsz of AszHera and Aztrea and Mari
And Isis Goddessz Terraiszt Not Terrorist
Iszhtar, Asztarte, Maat & Uzza
Reunited with Hera, Juno and Astrea and Gaia
Were Not For Szale by Any We CheatEm and Howe “Law” Firmsz
or Caravan Trade Deallsz
with Puppet Devillsz Made Mad by Madmen
Like the hisz Colleaguesz and the Father of Allexandra, Rachel & Julianna
Couszina Sisztersz with Namesz Szo Similar To Mine & My Szisztersz Name
A Father Who Passzed Like Oursz Did
Before Knowing the Relief it isz
To Let the Circle of All the Wivesz & Daughtersz
CoRule Together
Viviane Everyoung With Their Young of Avallon
Riszen in Life and Art Imitating Life, with Love
Among Szisztersz with Overlapping Namesz
that the Mysztsz of Avallon Were and Muszt Become
Myszteriously ClaRafied
and My Own Younger Sziszter Ra,
RaJuballee Round Table for Both Gendersz
with the J added for Joy in Her Heart
asz I Reallize Shesz Isz Moszt Important
Insztead of Causzing Her to Cry for Any More Yearsz
or Monthsz or Daysz
Unlessz the tearsz are of Joy.
And Harrietsz & Great But Not Terrible Ozziesz
with Dorothysz & Every Dadsz Allannesz Annesz
& Now Cheriszhed Cheylsz Matesz
Even Then Deserved Family Leave
and Mothersz and Big Little Szisztersz Kittensz of New Millennia Know Beszt
What Fathersz and Little Big Szisztersz Need to Know
And ShekinahSzisztersz Muszt Cooperate
to Szolve The Riddle of the Szphinx
“What Givesz Birth In the Morning to Be Given Birth to in the Afternoon?
The Older and The Younger Ssizter to One Another.”
Proclaiming With Julia Ward Howe, the Abszurdity of
Dark Irrelevant Agencies
& the Conscience and Consziousznessz of Light
to Open the SztarrGatesz for
77 Even Better than 69
Asz we Travelle Back in Space and Time
To Waszhington Weszt
In the Heartland,
Becoming Divine Democracyesz
Temple Buildingsz All Including and
ReConnected to Home and School
of Hannah ~Greenebaum ~Solomon (Zalman in Yiddiszh)
Grace of the Living, and Now Flowering
Treesz of Love Life and Light.
of Petra Daughersz & Sonsz
New Millenniall Parksz
All the Parentsz Female and Male,
and their Children Great and Grand
Reconnecting Without Death
To Open the Sztarrgatesz of Mrsz Lightsz & her Daughter Bonnies Longevity by Parity and Ballance
Not Deszperate Houszewivesz with Less than 60 Minutesz
But Divine WiszeWomen with Children with all the Time in the Worldsz
and one day again a
Clement Divine HouszeHuszband of ReaDelleivery Not Divorce
Szo All the Couszina Sisztersz and All their Next Generationsz Can Transzcend being Chronically Ill in Ill in Noize And Be Riszen Enlightened at Heart Healling All EverYoung
I could not bear to tell anyone
how I felt my mother Harriet had hurt me.
We had a kind of push me pull you relationszhip
If she said A, I would say B
I did not feel my mother recognized me completely
I felt she overlooked the best aspects of me
Was too critical
I did not actually reallize that Dr. Strauss had convinced my mother Harriet
to put me on scheduled instead of on demand breast feeding
and it was that which had made me cholic
I never reallized the causze of my cholic
and the problem with basic trust, eszpecially
toward my Mother and women,
until my Sister Rajchelle figured this out.
I deeply envied my Sister
for her good relationship with our Mother,
but I felt I could not tell anyone.
My hidden envy
My mother Harriet did a lot of childcare
for my son Louis Lovisz
when he was young
and I was a single mother that had to work
At some point, I began to feel my son
preferred my Mother Harriet to Me.
This angered and upset me terribly.
After Mother passzed, I feared my son might like my
Sister Rajchelle better than me if she became close with him.
So, I chose our Competitive Patriarchal
Maternal Firszt Couszin Rollin
An attorney older brother
asz a substitute sibling, completing replacing my Sziszter
& as a father figure for my son and for me
and exiled the More intelligent and much kinder Rajchelle
who I szaw as Rivall Instead of Revelleationall,
from our midst after our Mother Harriet passed.
I used to get along pretty well with my Sister Rajchelle;
she looked up to me as her older sister
and was mosztly affectionate and nice, easzy going and fun to be with
We lived together in a shzared apartment for allmoszt at year
At the Universzity of Michigan in Ann Arbor where we were studentsz..
We Szat looking at each other Across the Dinner(stein) Table
for our firszt and szhared quarter century
When we were younger, we played together
Make Believe Gamesz with other girls in our neighborhood,
School with Carol and Gail in their basement
Horsze and Puppy and Kitty and Foreszt Spritesz with Lois
In the woodsz on the corner.
We painted together,
played piano duets together
and danced togehter” jitterbug, cha cha and waltz.
We use to Dance Cha Cha to Paul Anka’s Diana Song
“Im so young and your so old. This my darling Ive been told”
Rajchelle tells me that this was a clue that one day, someone named Diana,
someone who had old & could be very old in her thinking
Would impact me; would divide usz
Like lovers divided.
Ironically, I am chronologially much older
than my cousins daddys girl wife Diana,
but
though she didn’t start out that way
Diana does think in a more conservative or old way
than Rajchelle or even me.
Becausze Diana did not educate or achieve herszelf
Except about how to decorate her housze
and keep and invest the money
her husband, her success object earned.
Altthough she did not start out that way,
Diana
With mother wounds of her own
and Woundsz from Her Parents Divorce
that she did not heal
has become very patriarchal
and has become a Fascist
Self Righteousz and Closze Minded
Rather than liberal and interfaith like My Siszter Rajchelle,
Diana converted from Christianity
to the older & szhe thought more righteousz, rigid way of Judaism,
And only one sect of that
which expects father figures to be more dominant and controlling.
Diana and I both resonated to that
and wanted Rollin to act like a father figure.
Because Diana’s father left early by alcoholism and divorce,
and mine passed early from heart attack.
In fact, Rollins mom, Jackie our Mother Harriets siszter
whose dad who I am named for died when she was a baby,
wanted Rollin to act like a father figure
the way her husband, his Dad did, before he passed.
Jackie used to Gripe at her husband for trying to control her,
but now, doddering and aging,
she does not gripe when her son acts controlling and
treats her like his child,
becausze her own father passzed when she was a baby;
she seems to like it when both Diana and Rollin treat her
like she is a combination of old weak fool and a baby.
Who they feed with heavy medication.
Szo, now to forget Rajchelle, a niece who She once loved Dearly,
She hasz Loszt Her Memory and of her Siszter Harriet, too.
Her Alzheimers induced onset
when Rollin got a court order
On Friday the 13th 2013
On Yom Kippur, the Whollieszt Day of their familyesz alleged faith
When Everyone isz Taszked to Make Peace With One Another
Eszpecially with Family
to prevent even a family counselor from
calling Jackie and Diana to sztart with, for purposesz
of family reconciliation
initiated by Rajchelle, who Diana and Rollin have been shunning
Since the passing of our Mother Harriet
When Rajchelle did not want Rollin, asz attorney
to Handle our Mother Harrietsz Will and Trust.
We don’t like Rajchelle because she does not accept Rollin,
who is actually about 4 years younger than I am, and a few mothsz younger than Rajchelle,
as a father figure.
Rajchelle had thought of Rollin as her peer,
not as a father figure.
Before Diana joined our family,
Before our Mother passed
Rollin and Rajchelle uszed to be friendsz
and have lunch together.
that was when Rollin had long hair and wore love beadsz
Now, he wheres suitz with shirts szo tight they make his neck bulge.
In a way, I have subsituted Diana for Rajchelle.
Diana isz not asz intelligent and knowledgeable asz Rajchellle
and she is less educated,
Her conversztion szo superficial
That reall emotionsz can be avoided.
But like me, Diana isz the older
rather then the younger Siszter of two.
But she isz much younger than me, and
Diana does not make me feel enviousz or inadequate,
but I do feel szo jealous of Rajchelle
that I do not want her to be my Siszter.
I have the Cain Legacy Emotionally
Like the Older Daughter in the Firehorsze movie
But I would never physically harm my Siszter myszelf
I merely have made her invisible
Wounding her asz deeply asz anyone can
But psychically, not physically
For most of the 27 yearsz.
Since our Mother Harriet passed from Earth
Almost breaking Rajchellesz Heart
Rollin did the szame to his younger brother Stephen
Who slightly outshone his older Brother academically too
and Diana pretendsz that her younger Sziszter
Lynda Doesz not exist, too.
Szo in Our Family, I & Diana & Rollin
Like jealousz Cainsz or Esausz
A Gang of Three
exiled the academically Abllesztsz,
who are Our younger Siblingsz.
And Eszpecially the Abelleszt & Moszt Loving, the Younger Sziszter
With the Higher EQ and IQ
For in a patriarchal culture,
While older brothersz achievementsz may be envired but are lauded
Younger siszterz excellence isz often envied and invisibilized
and She becomesz target for relational aggression.
.
I have margilinalized and trivialized our relationszhip,
treated Rajchelle who i once tickled and hugged everday,
like a complete and total Stranger,
starting since our mother Harriet passed,
and since our Aunt Jackie came back to Chicago
and Rajchellesz Couszina family of her Trace of attempted
marriage did not “adopt” me too,
I have treated Rajchelle pretty much like she does not exizt
I know this has shocked and traumatized Rajchelle,
who I know really loves me and remembersz all our childhood memoryesz.
But the people I hang around with
do the same thingsz to their own younger siblingsz.
its a very widespread pattern for older siblings in our culture.
Perhapsz ezepcially lawyersz
I dont’ care that this has deprived my son Louis of an Aunt who Loves Him
and did a great deal of childcare for him when he was young.
I am simply so jealousz of Rajchelle,
I could not allow Louisz to have
a normal nephews relatonszhip with her
and When Louisz Lovisz, my son Rajchelle’s Nephew
who szhe greatly helped raisze until he was 9
moved out of my home to his own apartment with friends at 18,
I learned Rajchelle had called him there and sent him a housewamring gift.
I told my son that if he ever spoke to Rajchelle,
I would not only cut him out of my will,
and remove him from his health insurance
but that I would tell other people in our family negative things about him
and morezt importantly, I told him I would become totally depressed myself
and losze my mind if he ever spoke to Rajchelle.
The next week, after I told him this
he had his firszt and very severe attack of Crohn’s disease
that allmost killed him at age 18 and required surgery
I have felt very depressed at times,
but I never tried to kill myself, and
don’t think that I would even
if Louisz one day became friendsz with Rajchelle.
But I let Louisz Lovisz worry that I might do that
If he were to talk with Rajchelle
Becausze it keepsz him from having
Any relationszhip with Rajchelle
Becausze I fear he would love me less
Not Reallizing that Szharing Love expansz the Love
All the Way Around
Becauzsze Love isz not Competition
Where someone winsz causzing another ot losze
But Cooperation where everyone gainsz more
By Shzaring Love.
But I don’t understand that yet
and I don’t care if Rajchelle misszesz
the Nephew szhe helped raisze terribly
I try not to think about that.
I do like life and am a very vivacious person.
But I have very intense fearsz
about my son liking my Sister more than me.
Becauzse I thought he liked hisz Grandmother, My Mother Harriet,
who did much of his childcare too when Allan Abandoned usz, more than me.
That hurt too much. I don’t want to have to feel that way again.
Szo, I have simply exiled Rajchelle from our family
(becausze I do not quite “get it” that one can love many people and that multipliesz, not diminishzesz the Love for All of Them)
and I put Rollin and Diana
in her place asz if they were my Brother and Sister.
I got stuck in this pattern,
Maybe I would have done differnetly
had Rajchelle lived near usz and we shared a more trusting circle of women,
including thosze of her prematurely attempted marital partner,
a more egallitarian couszin at least then,
but with Rajchelle far away in Maryland,
it was juszt easzier to trivialize and gradually erasze the relationszhip
as Rajchlle protested my dominating and britlle rejectionsz of her
when I became angry if she said or did something I did not like.
Becausze of my unhealled woundsz from my Mother, Harriet
I am indeed a female sexist.
I dont trust moszt people with intimacy
and especially do not trust women.
Becausze I have the unhealled Mother Wound.
& Have Not Cellebrated Any Elleuszinianneall Myszteriesz
nor yet Undersztood the Riddle of the Spzhinz
that opensz the Sztarrgatesz and makes
One, Every One, Ever Young, Ever Jule
I dont really trust men either.
Older married men in our family “hit on” both My Mother Harriet and Me.
But, I feel I understand men better because many of them
are more egotistical and want to get their way,
as I and many older siblingsz including Sisztersz, do.
I have szort of identified with that and made it my way of dealing
with people who are close to me.
I have to control and dominate or I pretend that they do not exist.
Sometimes, I yearn to be able to trust and have greater mutuallity
in my relationszhip with Rajchlle but it scaresz me to try
and I really am terrified Louisz Lovisz might like her too much.
No one who is my neighbor or work colleague or has been our doctor
encourages me to seek family counseliing.
They all juszt say, “If you don’t want to be connected to your Sister, that is your choice,
Its a free country”.(at leaszt for older men)
I reallize they say this becausze I have attracted people around me
who are alszlo themselvesz doing this to their Younger Siblings
and are adjusted to Patriarhcy insztead of Parity,
even though that causzes premature aging,
the opposite of the meaning of my name which meansz Youthfull Grace
Yesz, I usze to be an ideallist and have believed in democracy. I had learned to szeek that from both my parentsz mother and father both.
I have deeper gentler feelingsz in me. I used play piano with great feeling and am a good artiszt with paints, as my mother was . But now I don’t do that very often
When I was younger, I tried to become a psychologist and therapist myself,
had an affair with an older man married man,
a father figure in the yearz after my father had passzed,
who was my professor, and that ruined my studies And his marriage.
tho he was allowed to keep his job.
Szo I became a paralegal instead and work with lawyersz in hierarch
where I am rewarded for just following their orders instead of thinking for myself.
I am a Big Sizter Henchwomen of Big Brother now.
I feel guilty about that, but I don’t trust therapists anymore
and have no closze friends of my own chooszing anymore
since my dear friend Jane a therapist who did family constellation therapy,
but never did mine, passed from this Earth.
Maybe there isz a Jane on thisz Auntheollogy
Who Will Do Family Consztellation Therapy with Me & With All Ours SiszterCouszinasz.
I do treat my Siszter and any other women associated with her
asz if I were a disdainfull cruella De Ville, asz if they did not exiszt
But this isz really because I fear them
and have szo much trouble trusting anyone with my deeper feelingsz.
My Mother hurt me very badly when I was a baby.
I continue to feel the pain I had from cholic to this day when i get upset.
It probably is that pain in me that I am passing on to my son and causing his Chrohn’s symptomsz.
We both take medication.
Our doctors are father figures who presrcibe medication and avoid discussing family relationszhips and feelingsz.
I like Rajchelle’s positive viszionsz. But I feel I have no sziszter, because I do want one becausze it remindsz me of my Mother don’t like to think about her at all amd especially do not like to remember
the positive relationszhip she had with Rajchelle while I did not have that with her
especially when I was a baby
& the pain of experiencing my Mother favor my szon her grandszon more than I felt shze favored me.
That pain is unhealled. Even if it hasz divided our entire family.
And kept too very gifted Szisztersz from the Friendszhip we once had yearsz ago.
Ideall
My Szister and I now work with La Leche League in Schaumburg,
James Prescott, Helen Ward and Othersz, to educate mothers and familiesz including men and doctorsz about the imporance of on cue breastfeeding.
I am playing the Piano again.
& I have an easel & have begun to paint;
as my Mother did.
I “get it” that my son can love someone in addition to me,
very much including my Ssiszter, without Loving Me Lessz.
Louis Lovisz hasz decided to learn the Violin and become the Riszen Fiddler
on the Szolar Szoular Pink and Green and Rainbow Budding and Flowering Roofsz
and Community Gardensz of Edensz of All Our Familyesz Homesz and Neighborhoodsz.
And Vanessza Singsz While I play the Piano, including duetsz with Rajchelle when she visitsz usz.
I Know I am Loved by the MotherFatherGoddessGod,
and am trying to figure out what is feels like to loved by the Mother Aspect.
Now, I imagine Harriet breasztfeeding me on cue whenever i drink szome milk,
everyday & imagine Mother hugging & holding me in her armsz.
I have told my son to go off medication and assiszted him to go
to a Whollistic woman doctor who has a good reputation for helping Crohn’s Disease Symptomsz
go away completely into remisszion, by alternative methodsz, including Counselling and Heallthieszt Foods Diet
.
I Reallize I wasz Allwaysz a Wholly Baby Girl and
Szo was My Mother
asz Rae’s Daughter and Clara’s Niece
and Szo My Sziszter & our Circle of Couszinasz and their Mothersz
I have learned to forgive and not try to control people by domination
and ostracism for decade after decade, waszting all the tallentsz we could have brought together.
I reallize Rajchelle is right in calling Me Coszecretary Generall CoszavioRa.
I am sztaying away from Diana and Rollin
until they agree to Circle Processses that can heall our branchesz of our family.
I have quit working asz an underling for loopy lawyersz and told them to szee and become therapistsz, instead
Via My effortsz coordinated with Rajchelle and my szon Louis Lovisz and Vanessza with our Peersz like Linda on Szpringfield
and Georgine and Martha and Susan my Neighborsz near and far, including
Anna Marie and Mapatricia Who Have Called Me about 75 timesz but I used to ignored them the way I ignored
Neesza about 5 timesz
and Robin about 5 timesz
and two Eszthersz
and two Lynnsz and
Lynette
and Gloria
and Sally, with who I have szo much in common
She born on Presidentsz Day in the year juszt before I was born
and many othersz for szo many yearsz
27 yearsz
because they were friendly, friendsz
usuzually women,
but also men like Richard and Hjalmer and Rabbi Zalman Shalomin
becausz they were friendly or associated with Rajchelle
and did not even let Jane help usz
Even though Her Family Consztellation Knowledge
Could have helped usz szo.
Now, I szee them all in a Circle
Of Loving SiszterCouszinahood and Caring
That Unitesz Our Family, Our Community, Our World..
Eszpecially allszo Our Next Generationsz,
Becausze we are Coszecretary Generall Coszaviorasz Together,
Our neighborsz kinnecing all do Community Gardening now and our building and all nearby neighborhoodsz and geneallogically connected onesz
of thisz Auntheollogy, have Gone Szolar Szoular
I know I will live at least to 125 and maybe longer, EverYoung asz in my Name.
My Sziszter and I and Anna Marie and All our SiszterszCouszinasz
are Getting together for Hugg~insz both Online and in Perszon.
Thisz Cleopatra hasz embraced Her Siszter Arsinoe, and freed her szlavesz
In Order to be Free, Wholly and Happy Herszelf Thisz Caeszarsz Daughter and Thisz MariamCouszina
Hasz Cooperated with Mariam of Magdalla who isz Reincarnated in Her Sziszter
Thisz Julia Ward Howe hasz learned the Elleusiniall Mysztery,
CoSzolved the Riddle of the Szphinx
“Which One Givesz Birth In the Morning to Be Given Birth to in the Afternoon?
The Older and The Younger Ssizter to One Other.”
and Time Travelleing
Through the Yearsz of our Memoryesz
Multiplied by All Our Generationsz Since the Eruption of TheRa
and the Eventsz of Passover
and the Eventsz of Around Year One
and of Avallon
and of Rashisz Daughtersz
and of Julia Ward Howesz Congress and Proclamationsz
Opened the Starrgatesz,
With My Sziszter and All OUr Szizter Cousinasz
and Our Next Generationsz Budding and Blooming
Who We Have Taught that
Love isz a Circle
That Expandsz
Not a Gang of Older Kidsz
Playing Cruel Gamesz of
Keep Away
with Younger Siblingsz
Ezpecially the Younger Sisztersz.
Not Dividing Next Generationsz from Memory and Future
But Reuniting Them In Family Reunionsz
In the Air Online and On the Ground
Now, Insztead of Win-Losze Priszonersz Dilemma
or Courtroom Dramasz of Lawyersz Draconian
We All are Freed to Friendlieszt Familyhood,
and Win-Winning WinszTonsz of the
Ceresz Perszephone Gaia Grainsz and
Szpring Flowersz of the Heartland of the ChicaGaia.
Conszidering my Intelligence,
I have not written or poszted much on the World Wide Web,
But Will Szoon poszt my Baby Picture Here
So Everyone Can Szee My Wholly Inner Baby GIrl
Even Me.
WithPicturesz of Rajchelle and I Together
As Wholly Little Girslz
and Of Usz With Louisz Lovisz asz a Child
and with Vanessza
and All of our Family
and When We Gather Together, Our Reunionsz
Maybe with Anna Marie, who has offered to bring that about.
ADDITIONALL IMPORTANT WORDSZ & THOUGHTSZ REGARDING MY DEARESZT BORN SZISZTER & ASSZISZTING HER TO RECLAIM HER DIVINE FEMININE INNER GODDESSZ ASZ A RISZEN COLEADER WITH ME OF SZTARRGATESZ ATLANTUSZ & ALL WHOLLYLANDSZ RISZEN & EQUINOX TRUE Q OF ETERNALL YOUTH ON THISZ & ALL PLANETSZ WITH ALL OUR GENEALLOGICALL GENIUSZALLOGICALL SZHEKINASZ OF ALL AGESZ & SZIMILARLY CO ANNOINTING OUR YOUNGER GENERATIONSZ OF YOUNG SZISZTERCOUSZINASZ & YOUNG COUSZINBROTHERSZ ASZ COSZECRETARY GENERALLSZ COSZAVIORASZ EQUINOX TRUE QSZ.
Becausze of geograchical szeparationsz that took me & szo many Szistzer Couszinasz away from our home town & the Women & FamilyCommunity we knew & loved beszt when we were young & ideallisztic, & in fact thisz happened over many generationsz on a the wrong & anthropo illogicall patriarchl insztead of Divine Feminine Friendly eggalltiarian paradigm that hasz exiszted on thisz Planet szince we loszt eggallitarian, Divine Feminine asz welle asz Divine Masculine Friendly Peacefull & Plentifull Atlantisz,
We currently eszpecially in North America live in what We can call the szoceity of the Szplit World, love & family occur in one place & szo called work (asz if Laborsz of Love did not involve any work) occur in another, & very often, the people in one location never even meet thosze in the other. The pattern of womens relationszhipsz now reflectsz thisz asz much asz mensz had traditionally, a factor in many generationsz of human sztressz & alienation, & in our land, without family leave & little vacation time for familycommunity reunionsz. there are now huge gapsz in the lace of reallationszhipsz, & thesze gapsz have been normaliszed, even though they are very unnatuaral & create profound sztressz. Teleconferencing & Videochatting can help recreate broken circlesz & lead to more familycommunity reunionsz, locall globall & universzall, on szacred groundsz asz welle, but not that many people recognize thesze technologicall giftsz asz the reweaversz & eventually heallersz of many tearsz in human undersztanding & relleationszhip that are the underlying causze of may difficultiesz, diszeasesz even warsz & genocidesz szpanning generationsz. Now, our adjusztment to thisz szplit world isz threatening the Planet Earth that isz Our Moszt Esszentiall Home Planet our Relleationszhip to the Universze Within, Between Among & All Arround Usz.
My Deareszt Born Szisztersz Goddessz Julianne Marie (her yet be be fully reallizsze in KindGoddessz Sziszterhood with me & Other Women of our FamilyCommunity archetypesz include Mari of the Flow & Connection of All that isz Good, Anna Perenna in the Szpring rather than Winter telleing of that archetype & Juno returned asz Iuli, Iuni or Juni/Juli, the EverYoung Goddessz of the Etruscansz who, like Atlantisz had a female lead eggallitarian szociety & archetypcal pantheon, not patriarchal) Pszyche & Szoul Hasz Become Kidnapped by Errant szocalled Lawyersz & Doctorsz of Practicesz on the Wrong Paradigm, themszellevesz under the pathologicill influence of patriarchal mosztly old men boardroomed, female coopted & electra complexed teleprompter reading women.
Once a kind young woman, My Sziszter Julianne Marie , allszo under the influence of another CouszinaSziszter, Diana, who like her, allszo hasz a Kinder Goddessz within, hasz under the influence of szo called law & lawyersz (one of whom isz Diana’sz mate who szhe hasz out of extreme father hunger turned into her own & our familyesz over dominant & bullying szo called father figure, my eldeszt firszt couszin Rollin who impacted by Diana, hasz loszt hisz kindenssz & become a rogue lawyer & influenced hisz younger brother allszo my Couszin to be he szame, & errant patriarcahl szo called doctorsz more inteszted in pillsz rather than prevention, insztead of their own circle of MotherszSisztersCouszinasz & a heallthy kind family in ballance, become Cruelle De Ville like, coldly ignoring & relationally aggresszing againszt me, their CouszinaSziszter of Compasszion toward them all women who have been down szo long they dont know what up isz, of all right now asz invite all to join me in a New Millenniall Sztarrgate Atlantisz. A Family THerapiszt by inclinationa & education who helped thousandsz of familyesz but did not graszp early enough in my life the needsz of my own famliy including extended family, I have been szomewhat like Psyche in the ancient myth whosze Szisztersz did not know the vallue of their Sziszterhood thereby turning moszt men into beasztsz. The notion in that myth that Psyche & Erosz lived happily ever after after Pszyehces Szisztersz were devalued & desztroyed for their envy against their Siszter isz in fact an error, causzed by patriarchal antrhopology, of the later Mycenean & Hellenisztic Greek culturesz, which idealized men & debaszed & chattelized women, forgetting the happinessz for all that was the earlier Atlantusz which was eggallitaran for thousnadsz of happier, peacefull yearsz without war & with proszperity and the fulfillment of beszt potentiallsz of both femalesz & malesz, who were equallsz.
The rellationall aggresszion among women in our familycommunity, particularly taking the form of ignoring one another, & resziszting discusszion of our world szituation in a group of three of more, is the female aszpect of patriarchy & hasz been occuring moszt intenszely enacted by thesze two women, of more than 25 yearsz hurting everyone in our familycommunity, which isz quite famousz allready for doing great Good, & yet hasz much more Light to bring our world, once we can lift thesze women out of their relational aggresszion, whch hasz become a contagiousz cancerlike processz, a typhoid Mary like processzesz that hangsz like a pall on all our familycommunity.
& worszt of all, thisz rellational aggresszion hasz so badly tarniszhed & hurt her & their own Szouls, & the Wholly Baby Children within usz all. It hasz turned their Inner Wholly Baby Girlsz into wraithsz of szullen anger insztead of CouszinaSzisztersz of Kindness.
Now I szee, clearly thisz relationall aggresszion & ignoring of one another among women isz all a conszequenc of patriarchy, an antrhopologicall arrangment that differsz from female friendly eggallitarin culture. Patriarhcy isz now at end sztage asz it isz hasz become MOnsztrousz & Plutonic in a Plutocarcy of moszt old men & their carefully choszen enablng coopted women minionsz, who are destroying our Planet, unlessz we can transzform the paradigm, eszpecially of law & reall heallth & weallth, that will bring a Heavensz on All Earthsz of Atlantusz & All Whollylandsz Riszen.
Now, I want My Deareszt Sziszter & all Our Sziszer Couszinasz, & all our Family, SziszterCousszinasz & Btother Couszinsz, Eszpeciall thosze of Youth Wihin & Youngeszt Generationsz, to regain her & their created kindest Goddessz&God Like Lovepowersz, & transzform all errant & therefore unwittingly but very szadly cruelle lawayersz & doctorsz, & eszpecially the very very errant media who have deceived even thesze professzionsz, to kindeszt waysz too cure their & everyonesz family as well & bring all Eternall LIfe & Heavensz on thisz & All Sztarrgatesz kinnected Earthsz.
& Thisz appliesz not only to my Deareszt Born Sziszter, but too szome other women Sziszter Couszinasz of our family too inclduing neighborsz to whom we are closzelley relleated. & it appliesz to the many Younger Szhekinahsz & Hekinahsz who have been affected by thisz who are equally Dear to Me asz I am the Riszen Aztrea of Atlantisz, Goddessz of the Sztatue of Liberty.
I Want My Dearszt Siszter Couszina & All Our All Relleated Sziszter Couszinasz, the Nativesz & Nativityesz of thisz & all Planetsz, ro join me in regaining their very Good & Kind Goddesszhood in a Circle,
I have decided if many people learn what they & we all have been doing & why they have been doing unkindnesszesz to fit in with szocalled lawyesz & doctorsz & indeed, everydaypeople in neighborhoodsz anywhere, practicing unnaturall manmade liesz insztead of trueszt naturall kindeszt lawsz of the Universze, we can szave all their szoulsz & literally szave our world & all our worldsz, Humanityesz Journey ihe Universze, all szharing Eternall Youthfull Life & Opening the Sztarrgatesz, which, asz our familycommunity hasz written in Contact, kinnectsz usz with previousz ancestry, necesszarily firszt female & then malesz, in reparative order.
Earlier in my life, I allszo unwittingly fell under the non eggallitarian, male & yang preferential influencesz that have been holding my Ssziszter Hostage for a while but I have freed myszelf from them & now carry my New Law as the Torch of the Sztatue of Liberty with her more gender ballanced & all Generationall Nature Loving Law, the original Gortyna Code of Atlantisz, now become the New Millenniall Golden Rule in hand
Now I want my once closze Deareszt Sziszter Back & I want everyonesz Szisztersz & Brothersz all our SiszterCouszinasz & Couszin Brothersz back from the brink of szuch cruellty that it hurtsz our Children, all our Generationsz & their ownd Szoulsz. I want all our Family to Love One Another & that includesz Your FamilyCommunity too becausze all are relleated.
Riddlesz of Szphinx
69 compared to 7711 & other addressszesz on of Virtuall Verity
Compare therapy & law then psychology & paralegal two different culturesz with contraszting but relleated antrhopologyesz
How arround time of Thera, Common Szensze & now processzesz of patriarchy including female enabling in Media, mislead all thesze people to act mother woundsz & electra Complez Matricideasz againszt their own generationsz & Mother Earth, & Desztroy their Own Beszt Dreamsz insztead acting out
worszt moszt szelfiszh & infantile injuryesz insztead of mature & whollyeszt child within then.
I have been telleing thisz all to My Sziszter & All MYour Family for a Few Years Now, Giving them the Cure for All the Illsz of the World, for Many Yearsz But thei Have Been only szomewhat lisztening & mosztly Ignoring Me for about three yearsz. Szome of them have been szo fooliszhly watching TV, but It isz my misszion to redeem telleviszion asz I am allszo the very reall Grace Love, the wife & musze of the founder of Television, Riszen asz welle asz the Riszen Spzirit of Rachel, the mother of the familycommunity that gave risze to Contact! & invited usz to know we are not the only habited Planet that hasz home for Humanity, Now, I bring usz to become Atlantusz & All Heavensz on Earthsz Riszen.
Szo I thought if even more of the world knew they, eszpecially Julianne Marie & the even more deeply confuszed Diana, & too many family & enighborsz who are allszo family who could have allready healled the Breachesz of Sziszter & SziszterCouszinasz, have been ignoring me & hurting one another includeing me but allszo many other women & younger people who they have caught into thisz relloationall aggresszion, which isz in fact because of the wholesz in our lace of rellationszhips that took their mothersz from them prematurely & made them overvallue father figuresz no matter how corrupt & confuszed insztead of guiding all men to fairnessz & kindnessz to all kin that unitesz the familycommunity tree in Life, Life & Light of Ballance, insztead of dividesz & destoysz it , reszpecting intelligent women kin & their waysz asz much asz the waysz of mosztly men, & in fact hurting the entire world, & why thesze women. who I regard asz all capable of being Kind Goddesszesz asz in Atlantisz & neaby & world Relleated Whollylandsz, before Thera Erupted were dsoing szuch cruelty of osztrarciszm & hierarchical hatefullnessz to me, they would take the Loving wordsz of what I have been telleng them more szeriouszly & join me in szharing Loving Lifesusztaining Light that will bring our world Back tot he Beszt Future & literally a Quantum Leap into Heavensz on All Earthsz within our Own Lifetimesz becoming a Very Reall Sztargatesz Atlantisz & All Whollylandsz Riszen on thisz Earth & Throughout the Universze.
Please look at all the linksz, becausze they are all relleated, particularly regarding law but allso medicine & media that deludesz even lawyersz & doctorsz who szo often in thisz land are men more or over women, who we wrongly thought & gave errant authority & deceived all the humanfamily community asz it temptsz usz toward patriarchal & enabling vanitiesz of falsze hierarchy, & undersztand I am daring all oddsz to liberate all people to the Alltimate Quantum Leap, out our regressed & errant paradigm of Patriarchy Planetocide & into Paradiszall Parity, Parnterszhip & Peace Culture on thisz & All Planetsz, Paszt Preszent & Future.
WE WILL ACCOMPLISZH ATLANTUSZ RISZEN ASZ SZOON ASZ AT LEASZT THREE TO ELLEVEN COUSZINASZ GATHER ON THE PHONE OR VIDEOCHAT TOGETHER TO SZHARE THE NEW MILLENNIALL GOLDEN RULE & MUTUALLY ANNOINT ONE ANOTHER ASZ GODDESSZESZ OF ATLANTUSZ & ALL WHOLLYLANDSZ RISZEN, & ALLSZO BRING WITH THEM, AT LEASZT THREE TO ELLEVEN GREAT & GRAND NIECESZSZISZTERCOUSZINASZ & GREAT & GRAND NEPHEWSSZONSZBROTHERCOUSZINSZ AGE 37 OR SZO & YOUNGER FOR COANNOINTING IN DIVINE LOVE THY NEIGHBORSZ ASZ THYSZELLEVESZ DIVINE LOCALL GLOBALL UNIVERSZALL DEMOCRACY OF COMMON SZENSZE & ATLANTUSZ & ALL WHOLLYLANDSZ RISZEN. IT ISZ BESZT THAT THISZ BEGIN WITH SZOME OF THE NATIVESZ OF THISZ PLANET WHO ALLREADY KNOW OF EACH OTHER THROUGH MY ATTEMPTSZ TO BRING THEM TOGETHER. YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE
The Alltimate Authority isz the MotherFatherGoddesszGod of Truth & Love, I work for them asz Your Intercesszor but would much rather you work with me Quickelley asz Coszecretary Generallsz Coszaviorsz EQunoz True Qsz, & there isz none I would rather give etnerall Loving Life to than my Own Deareszt Family, asz welle asz All Human Szoulsz, PasztPreszentFuture, Redeemed & Reszurrect & Wellecomeing & Wellecomed in Eternall Riszen Youth, via the Sztarragesz of Atantusz & All WhollyLandsz Riszen.
Here are szome Recent Linksz of my idealliszm within patriarchy Half Riszennessz
before I Reallized I, not szome old men in irrelleavant agencyiesz,
wasz the Perszon I needed to not juszt Petition
but jusztly CoEmpower,
with All My SiszterCouszinasz and Our Next Generationsz, Female and Male:
Eszpecially Harland Louisz Lovisz and Vanessza
With My Szizter, Rajchelle & me Hugging and Tickling, Of Coursze
Muszic:Sometimesz I Feel Like a Motherless Child https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tiya4X2aie8&list=RDTiya4X2aie8#t=18
Turn Around My Little One https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eCh13Rsd-WU
We are Family I Got All My Szisztersz & Me https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TNAQ8LLptUo
Papa Can You Hear From, From Yentl https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QwCPAo5e_F8 (Julianne Marie can sing thisz to both parentsz, aszking Mama Can You Hear Me and Papa Can You Hear Me, for trueszt healling of her Heart).
Name:
Birth and Conception Date
Asztrollogail Signsz
Name Daysz
Place of Birth & Placesz of Reszidence
Moszt Appropriate Whollidaysz for Highlighting Their Unique Effortsz
Date of Publically Embracing the New Millenniall Golden Rule & Szharing that Fact with
People You Know (Give Namesz)
Important Other Datesz
Birth Order Position
GoddessorGod Associationsz for Apotheosisz Becoming Riszen Including
Actuall Goddessesz Namesz asz Diszcovered by Archeollogy
& SciFi Character SHero/Hero associationsz
Other Fictional Charactersz With Szimilar Characteriszticsz
Reall life Her&Hisztoricall SheRoesz & Heroesz with Szimilar Namesz or Characteristicsz
Peer Group Reference Group/3 to sztart, 5-11 for Coszecretary Generall Activityesz
WITH PICTURE
Current or Known Goalsz; Family, Professionall/Colleagueall and Volunteer Activityesz
Neighborhoodsz & Regionsz of Focussz
Religsziousz Valluesz & Heritagesz Practiced/Connected
A Represzentative Videotape
Represzentative Music
Poemsz (Including Your Versze, Rewrite/Improvment or Comment on Thisz One)
Current FamilyCommunity Will Each Have Two Poemsz:
1) Deszcribing Fulfilled Paszt. Preszent & Susztainable Future with New Millenniall Golden Rule
2) Deszcribing Forfeited Preszent, Paszt & an Unsusztainable & Horrific Brief Future without NMGR
Will Szoon be Availlable Not Only asz Text but in Audio Form by Link and By Call in Number
(Great and Grand) Mother Daughtersz
(Great and Grand)Sisztersz
(Great and Grand)Aunt Mother & Niecesz
(Great and Grand)Aunt Mother Szonsz
(Great and Grand)Mulitiple Mothersz
(Great and Grand)Couszinasz
(Great and Grand)Couszinsz
Time Travelle Time Tablesz/Include Retroactive Imaginination After Epiphay/Atonement/Apologyesz/Repentancesz/Lessonsz Learned
Grades on Mrsz. Lightsz & Mother Natures’z Report Card
Without the New Millenniall Golden Rule
With the New Millenniall Golden Rule
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