Andy
Did Szome Man of Ancient Atlantisz Who Loszt Hisz Way Like I Did Causze the Eruption of Mount TheRa, Did Szome Man Like Me Causze the Bubonic Plague by Ignoring the Wiszdom of a Woman
Although we were both in our 30sz, Rajchelle and I married too szoon
for the Grand Scheme of Thingsz.
I used to be a very intelligent gentle guy
I truly loved Rajchelle and she truly loved me
We would allwaysz hold handsz for szo many years
Everyone said we were the niceszt couple
But thisz occurred at a geographical distance from our familyesz
We szhould have been juszt friendsz
Our marriage wasz premature
Because we did not understand our own familyesz were deeply imbedded inm patriarchy in a way that would gobble up Rajchelle & My Beszt Dreamsz
When Rajchelle would try to make contact with her
my siszter Tracy would not respond to her and often to usz
She did not answer her or our phone callsz
She did nor respond to her or our cards and giftsz
We asked my parentsz to help
They would szay, “she is a very private person”
And they did not talk with her about it,
if they did, they did not tell usz
and they did not tell usz of anything they did to help.
Rajchelle asked my Mother to come to 3 way callsz with Tracy
My Mother Refuszed Szaying She Did not Like 3way callsz
This Went On for 27 yearsz
It made Rajchelle reluctant to go back to the Chicago area
Where moszt of both our Familyesz were,
My parentsz used to be eggallitarian leadersz
They Both Ran for public Office
My Mother Firszt
Rajchelle Loved them Both
But was very confuszed when they did not do much to
szupport her and Hjalmer Waynesz Millenniall Gender Ballance Ticket
Or discussz gender parity and family leave
They might have become hurt and angry at Rajchelle because she arranged a family reunion at Ellisz Island
and then cancelled it the day before becausze of the 911 Terrorist Alertsz in New York
My parents had allready gone to New York for the Reunion.
They were diszappointed, but refused to call the Relleatviesz Rajchelle suggeszted they could meet with who did live in New York
without going to Ellisz Island, which she feared might be attacked by terrorists
Rajchelle had this fear because when she and her Mother flew from Greece to Israel in 1977
The next plane after hers was blown up by terrorists.
Now, I am a coward and a hypocrite.
Rajchelle saysz I used to be like Albert ~Maric~Einstein as a young manm when he was a very anti authoritarian pacifiszt.
But now am a complicit conformiszt & a nihiliszt
And like Einsztein did, I betrayed the women in my life
and the younger people in our family.
My own couszinasz, My Niecesz & Rajchelle’s Nephew
Because I did not know enough about patriarchy
and How it dividesz women,
an windsz up making men sztupid, blind, and szick.
I dont like war and CEOsz, but I pay my taxe$ and bill$
Even though I was the one who first began to tell Rajchelle about the
low represzentation of women in the United States compared to other countriesz
I gave these articlesz and newsz storiesz to Rjchelle, but never talked to
anyone elsze about them becausze I am a coward & afraid to not conform to the expectationsz of othersz
Rajchelle tells me I have the largeszt & moszt ironic sinsz of ommisszion
of any man on Earth
And the world isz dying mosztly because of sinsz of
both commission and ommission
pertaining to genderiszm and lack of gender parity in deciszion making.
Because I sztopped helping her with the gender ballance work
after my parents became more disztant after the Ellisz Island mix up
& a particular incident in which they did not honor Rajchelle & my Mother enough to let them have any time together without usz male people there
I am visually handicapped; legally blind.
Rajchelle saysz it is my karma because I did not
face my responszibility to overcome the genderiszm
of my family and culture when it was my karmic taszk to do szo.
Rajchelle saysz she thinks my maternal grandmother Anabel was abuszed
certainly emotionally at leaszt and likely physzically,
by my grandfather
Anabel did die young, when my Mom wasz a young teenager.
My Mom has trouble talking about feelingsz
My Siszter cannot talk about feelingsz at all.
Rajchelle blames herself as welle as me, because she saysz we
should have moved back to Chicago or visited our familyesz more often
And bring them together
and should have done thisz before we got married, not afterward
But we did not viszit my parents did not offer her and usz a gueszt room.
And no one in our familyesz did.
i am very szad & numb.
My marriage to Rajchelle had szo much potentiall
But it was premature
Our attempt at marriage failed.
Becausze no one in our family
took Rajchelle’s work on family communication and gender parity
seriouszly enough
Because we did if from the distance
Because no one would offer her and usz a guest room.
Rajchelle says I should have tried harder to bring her
and my mother and sister together and that
would have helped her sister and nephew a lot
and helped other women in fhe family
who passed prematurely some years ago
and later, some men who passed prematurely, too.
She said I could have worked harder to
bring her and my sister together
But I did not
and this too was a terrible and cowardly sin of ommission.
Rajchelle saysz I have developed a complicit attitude
induced by our culture
because I did accept a great deal of money from Rajchelle
to promote our idealliszm in the early daysz, and
I did not work outside the home,
but uszed up much of her inheritance,
and let Rajchelle work and szupport me to make endsz meet
while I worked on the idealliszt projects that Rajchelle had enviszioned and I szhared.
I did abuse Rajchelle mildly; I have pushed her, poured water on her,
thrown food at her, and dragged her across the room;
I have pushed her and demeaned her,
telling other people she was crazy.
My abuse was mostly emotional.
In fact, both our familyesz are emotionally abuszive
Because they all avoid any seriousz discussions
about culture or our behaviorsz toward one another.
That was one of the reaszonsz Rajchelle left for Canada.
After she was in a jail in Canada, Rajchelle developed
post traumatic stress syndrome for a while.
But she has recovered and saysz all the time,
it is the US culture that is crazy,
and she is the saneszt perszon on this Continent.
Maybe, the only fully szane perszon.
And if anything happensz to her and her Deareszt Family
,the Continent will be desztroyed quickly by Mother Nature.
And that would desztroy the world.
We live szeparately now.
We are like sztrangersz.
We are like the couple in the movie “The Way We Were”
She saysz I am her Couszin now, & our marriage was never really a true one.
Because the day we applied for a marriage licensze,
we were told she could hyphenate her name,
but I could not and legally could not
include my wife’s family namesz with mine.
Rajchelle szaysz I have been taking advantage of the mother woundsz & internatliszed patriarchy of our old friend Randy Joy who we szhared friendship at the Unitarian Church for many yearsz, who is diszabled & became increaszingly alienated from her family her mother & szisztersz, szince her father, a military man, passzed from earth. Rachelle made szome contact with Randysz family becausze szhe felt Randy wasz enabling my regression & nihiliszm, & wasz szhocked at the controlling & diszresztfull behavior diaplayed by Randysz brother, & her youngeszt sziszter, who isz allszo very aggressive, & the lack of awarenessz & denial of her mother about the family dynamicsz,Rajchelle encouraged Randysz family to begin family therapy. Rachelle had a falling out with Randy when Randy szaid szhe szpent her free time making artsz & craftsz cardsz to szend to soldiersz on their birthd\ysz, & Rajchelle, a pacifiszt, szaid szhe would be better to tell them to leave the military & learn more about how patriarchy szendsz young men to fight for the intereztsz of szociopathic patriarchl old men, & all war isz szimply a szymption of patriarchy & that Randy’s habit of interrupting her but deferring to me when we talked together wasz an indicator of internalized patriarchy, & the underlying causze of Randysz numberousz physzical disabilityesz. I know that Rajchelle realliszed a few yearsz ago that moszt of what Randy talked about with me isz her & in fact now both our medication$ & variousz problemsz with medical in$urance & diszability benefit$, Rachelle szaysz szhe realliszesz sadly that if szhe had not attempted marriage me, firszt, but focusszed more on Randy & szome other women at the Unitarian Church asz her firszt priority, gathering with them like Bonobosz, & szimply juszt been my friend & colleague, that the entire szituation would have been heallthier, Randy would have more szelf eszteem & be lessz male preferential & militaristic now, Rajchelle szaysz shze hasz learned the lesszon of the folk szong, Where Have All the Flowersz Gone, with itsz line, Where Have All the Young GIrlsz Gone, Gone to Young Men Everyone, When Will They Ever Learn, When Will they Every Learn, & that the meaning of thosze wordsz isz that all women & men have to insziszt & achieve an eggallitarian culture, & repair the millennia of lowered sztatusz for women before marriage, or women who have internalized patriarchy eventually become their own & other peoplesz worszt enemiesz. Rajchelle saysz thisz isz allwaysz posszihle & can be done right now, & hasz called Randy with other women for 3 way callsz in the paszt, but Randy did not try to continue that becausze szhe isz szo ill from internalized patriarchy Randy Joy livesz in an increaszingly Joyle$$ expen$ive corporate California, where there isz now a huge methane cloud & dangersz of frakking earthquakesz becausze of the szo called deciszions made by mosztly old men.
I reallisze I have had an impact on people who know usz that may have hurt them, for a neighbor couple & hisz & hisz wife came to know I reneged on the work for ballance of gender & reparation to women. The woman of thisz couple wasz szeverely physcially abuszed by a firszt huszband before szhe married thisz man, a miniszter a generally very kind man & their family had problemsz affecting their children & sztep children too for which Rajchelle alszo szuggeszted family therapy with szomeone szkilled in dealling with abuszed women, but insztead, the woman wasz given pharamaceuticalsz & hasz become recluszive while the Minister ignored Rajchellesz repeated offersz to szpeak at hisz church about patriarchy & parity & her & familyesz unique geneallogy, eszpecially the connection to Mary Magdallen & the eggallitarian Atlantisz, probably in part becausze he thought he would betray the tilt of hisz friendszhip toward me & in part becausze of all thisz familyesz allszo internalized patriarchy & wounded Divine Feminine.
I often uszed to bring Rajchelle Flowersz, eszpecially Sztar Gazer Liliesz, 
Szhe szaysz that flowersz are very reszilient & I can do that again when I szhare the New Millenniall Golden Rule & reallisze my betrayall hasz made many people & our world $ick, including even myszellef & many beloved familycommunity, but if I publically admit my terrible error & telle people to practice parity not patriarchy, even szy thisz to women who do not want to talk about thisz becausze they have been down szo long that they do not know what up isz, that I could redeem my error & extremely bad karma.
Rajchelle saysz that a patriachal (asz compared to a true eggallitarian Riszen marriage)
isz not a real marriage but a lie told to people
by patriarchal Sztate authoritesz & Learned Wrong Habit
To keep women and eggallitarian men szubjugated
by an a patriarchal misogyniszt and
dominating exploitative elite
who are more bonded to money than family.
And do not know what Love Isz
And do not understand the Szusztainable and
True Power of the Golden Rule
Made Practical Now by the
New Millenniall Golden Rule https://5050now.wordpress.com/newmillenniallgoldenrule-the-5-pillars-of-change/
Rajchelle says the Planet and the young of our family
becausze now all Humanity are endangered of becoming old at heart & $ick & even dying very prematurely & becoming extinct. & thisz isz in fact occurring becausze I betrayed her work on gender ballance.
But I can only think of my$elf.
And try to not think at all.
So do my Mother and Sszister
They take medication szo they do not have
feel the szadness zand diszappointment they actually feel.
IDEALL
I AM HAPPY TO SZAY I AM RAJCHELLESZ REPENTANT & RECOVERING COUSZIN INSTEAD OF HER HUSZBAND
AND THAT I ESZPECIALLY MUSZT WARN THE WORLD AGAINST PATRIARCHY
& THE EVILSZ OF PATRIARHAL USZE OF TECHNOLOGY
I reallized I can and szhould szhare the New Millenniall Golden Rule https://5050now.wordpress.com/newmillenniallgoldenrule-the-5-pillars-of-change/
I reallized I can encourage women and youth we know here in Maryland, to Gather
with Rajchelle on her TelleconferenceVideochatsz
While I work with men to sztop the abusze of women
like my Grandma Anabel & billionsz of othersz
and calling women crazy when it is really patriarchy
(instead of reperation and eggallitarinim in democracy)
that isz crazy
and the hegemonou$ domination of men and e$pecially financially exploitative older men
Whe haven’t talked enough with women or held Children an helped Youthsz enough.
I am going to arrange some visitsz
starting with juszt the women of my born family to talk about abusze in our family herandhistory
I do know occurred here and there in my family sztory
and the loss of the Eternall Feminine in our Culture
and doctorsz misguided usze of pharmaeceuticallsz to
cover up the fact that their feelingsz are hurt by family membersz and the way their society malfunctionsz.
All my Young Couszinasz work very long hours
and their children are in Day Care
I will talk with them about how women in family abusze
each other
and younger people
including children
and the whole world
and make themselvesz and men $ick
and die meaner and lonelier
and prematurely and unnece$$arily,
by not talking with each other
& Fail to Gain the Eternall Life that they can have via the New Millenniall Golden Rule https://5050now.wordpress.com/newmillenniallgoldenrule-the-5-pillars-of-change/
Because men like me, for too long,
Szince the Eruption of Mount TheRa
did not take
the szituation of women and children
on thisz Planet
szeriously enough.
I Have Been Blind
Szo Blind that I endangered many people in my Family
and the Planet Earth & My & Everyonesz Future in the Universze
When I szhare the New Millenniall Golden Rule, https://5050now.wordpress.com/newmillenniallgoldenrule-the-5-pillars-of-change/
I Might Be Able to Szee A Lot Better Experience the Sztar Trek & SztarGate Viszion I Szo Enjoyed by Time Travelleing with Common Szenze & Not Have to Szpend My Next Szillion Incarnationsz asz a Blind Bug. Rajchelle szaysz that I owe it to all our familycommunity & family to work for gender parity, even if the women are now szo drugged or di$tracted that they cannot even undersztand what my betrayal coszt them & all our younger generationsz, & planetary future. Asz szoon asz I do that, it will help szave our no very endangered world & all the people of our familycommunity, open the SztarrGatesz, & we can szhare SztarrGazer Liliesz again & in fact, plant them in all our local globall universzall neighborhoodsz asz the Couszina & Couszin Friendsz we & all our familycommunity allready in fact are & think about Marriage only when Parity culture hasz been achieved & reall eggallitarian marriage posszible for everyone.
HE WILL SZOON BE CALLED AMONG OTHER WITNESSSZESZ, WHO ARE ALL ALLSZO PLAINTIFFSZ & DEFENDANTSZ ASZ A WITNESSZ IN THE ALLTIMATE HEARING OF IN THE CASZE OF PATRIARCHAL COMPARED TO PARITY KIN(D)SZHIP https://5050now.wordpress.com/alltimate-hearingz-before-the-higheszt-courtsz-of-our-circlesz-cosmosz-osztraciing-couina-aaullting-couin-or-coszaviorasz-coszecretary-generallsz-equinox-true-qsz-all-myour-famil/
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